A soft exhale against Astarion's skin that could almost be a laugh, in better circumstances. "I could have." Should have, definitely. There's something more he wants to say at that moment, some joke to match Astarion's lightening of the tone, but it's lost in the still ongoing wails surrounding them, in the tumult of his mind.
This place is haunted, certainly; is haunting them most definitely. He hates it. He hates the reminder of what's missing from the life he's attempted to carve out for himself in half a year or so of living in Thedas, of the life and family he practically squandered in the past and may never well see again.
His thumb comes up, tracing the shell of Astarion's ear. It's a very narrow sort of bridge between friendship and more that he's currently traversing, Loki knows, and there are limits to how far this will probably go tonight. But it's a good distraction from the noise around them.
Doesn't mean he doesn't mean it, however.
"Perhaps I would have traveled instead of becoming a harbinger of war to Midgard for the Mad Titan. Done any number of things. Chased power in a way that didn't spell the end for so many, didn't cause an entire planet to hate me." Another of those soft snorts. There was a time when he didn't care if he was hated or not, as long as everyone knew his name. Perhaps he is growing old. "I would have spoken with my mother, again, if I could, instead of dismissing her."
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This place is haunted, certainly; is haunting them most definitely. He hates it. He hates the reminder of what's missing from the life he's attempted to carve out for himself in half a year or so of living in Thedas, of the life and family he practically squandered in the past and may never well see again.
His thumb comes up, tracing the shell of Astarion's ear. It's a very narrow sort of bridge between friendship and more that he's currently traversing, Loki knows, and there are limits to how far this will probably go tonight. But it's a good distraction from the noise around them.
Doesn't mean he doesn't mean it, however.
"Perhaps I would have traveled instead of becoming a harbinger of war to Midgard for the Mad Titan. Done any number of things. Chased power in a way that didn't spell the end for so many, didn't cause an entire planet to hate me." Another of those soft snorts. There was a time when he didn't care if he was hated or not, as long as everyone knew his name. Perhaps he is growing old. "I would have spoken with my mother, again, if I could, instead of dismissing her."