Entry tags:
- ! open,
- abby,
- alexandrie d'asgard,
- bastien,
- benedict quintus artemaeus,
- byerly rutyer,
- derrica,
- ellie,
- gwenaëlle baudin,
- james flint,
- john silver,
- julius,
- loki,
- matthias,
- obeisance barrow,
- petrana de cedoux,
- tiffany hart,
- { astarion },
- { dante sparda },
- { emet-selch },
- { james holden },
- { jone },
- { sidony veranas },
- { sylvie },
- { tony stark }
open | holiday spirits
WHO: Whoever, plus some spirits.
WHAT: Everyone spends an evening regretting the past. So basically a normal night.
WHEN: Wintermarch 5-6
WHERE: A castle in the mountains north of Kirkwall
NOTES: OOC post including less vague/pretentious haunting mechanic descriptions. Fantasy violence and swearing and so on are assumed, but please use content warnings in your subject lines for things like explicit gore or sex, slavery content, body horror, etc., if you go any of those routes.
WHAT: Everyone spends an evening regretting the past. So basically a normal night.
WHEN: Wintermarch 5-6
WHERE: A castle in the mountains north of Kirkwall
NOTES: OOC post including less vague/pretentious haunting mechanic descriptions. Fantasy violence and swearing and so on are assumed, but please use content warnings in your subject lines for things like explicit gore or sex, slavery content, body horror, etc., if you go any of those routes.

THE CASTLE
Their convenient shelter from the unexpected blizzard that whips up around them in the mountain pass isn't too convenient. Anyone with a reasonable detailed map will find it marked there; reaching its clifftop location requires a slight detour. When they approach, it has no warm ethereal glow or suspiciously welcoming lit torches. The windows stay dark. The portcullis is raised just high enough to be ducked under, but the heavy doors of the keep don't swing open to welcome them.
The only immediate sign that something is amiss is the thorough, all-encompassing emptiness of the place, and it might take some investigation before that begins to feel strange. The fortress' abandonment seems recent and abrupt: ample firewood has been cut and stacked for the winter, nothing has been done to protect the furniture or strip the beds, the kitchen is fully stocked and even has some perishables that do not seem close to perishing, the stables are equipped to comfortably keep any animals along for the journey, and a chess board before the hearth in the (humble) grand hall seems to have been left mid-game. But there are no messages, no bodies, no footsteps dimpling the crunchy layer of old snow accumulated in the bailey beneath the fresh snowfall.
As they search, the castle's visitors may begin to find signs that the castle hasn't been entirely abandoned. It begins with whispers emanating from the dark ends of corridors, voices they recognize and others they don't, or faces both familiar and unfamiliar flashing in still water or window panes when firelight hits right, or forms moving on the edge of vision but vanishing before they can be looked at directly.
By the time this becomes worrisome enough to drive anyone back out of the castle, the portcullis has fallen shut and won't budge. Neither will any other doors to the outside. The windows won't break; doors won't give way even to makeshift battering rams. The only walls that can be climbed or reached by stairs face out over a deep ravine. It might be a survivable climb, if the wind and weather allowed, but it would not be a survivable fall.
THE SPIRITS
--so back inside, then.
The keep is built like the Gallows' towers, square and tall, and it won't take long for Riftwatch to notice that whatever is wrong is more wrong the higher they climb. The whispers and glimpses on the lowest floor become voices and lingering shadowy figures on the second. Someone might turn and find their hand briefly held by an unfamiliar man's, warm and real for the moment it takes him to say, "Come with me." Or behind them, a woman's shocked and seething voice says, "What are you doing?" Or maybe it's a hand they do know and a voice saying something they've heard before.
As people venture to the higher floors--whether intrepidly seeking the source or involuntarily herded onward by spirits--these moments will begin to last and linger and repeat. And those who don't dare venture higher won't be exempt, confronted by stronger spirits that emerge like ants from a kicked hive as the upper floors are disturbed.
As they approach the uppermost floor, reality will begin to slip away from them. They may find themselves lost in a maze of rooms, even though that shouldn't be possible in so few square feet, and ultimately enveloped in comforting worlds where they didn't do that thing they regret and that, like dreams, feel real until they suddenly don't--until something is too unbelievable, until someone interrupts, or until a demon is holding them under the water of the warm bath they were tempted into, shoving them off a balcony, or whispering into their ears and minds, let me in and you can keep it.
The hauntings will continue until
THE END
When it ends, it ends abruptly. Weaker spirits vanish; stronger ones retreat into the dark. The lesser demons on the upper floors linger, and some may put up a last-ditch physical fight, but without their superior, they've lost most of their mental pull and emotional sway. The castle has changed, too. Its abandonment no longer looks so recent. The food and firewood is gone, along with any sense of warmth or satiety anyone used them to acquire earlier. There is dust where none was before, mildew and rot, and a few scattered, unfortunate skeletons.
The sun is not quite up, the sky a faintly luminescent grey. But the weather is survivable, though it will be slower travel than it would have been without the fresh snow. The doors will open, and the portcullis will raise. Everyone can set off on their cold, hours-long journey back to the city. Talking about their feelings or avoiding eye contact the entire time: the choice is theirs.
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Ellie pushes at him, fighting it on impulse, a high scream rising in the back of her throat. Little-girl panic that breaks into small, gasping cries.
She is sharp, to hold. She hits him in her struggles, bites him out of desperation, the way a cornered animal would, but then his voice starts to break through. His scent. Lilac and leather oil. It's familiar, speaks of comfort and safety and security from the times they've held each other, and the screams taper off into panicked, shallow gasps. A sob cuts through the back of her throat, tearing a way painfully out of her, and her grip loosens. Her hands search blindly for him. Grope her way back to reality.
Ellie's tears wet his shoulder, and she gives a single, soft sob of relief, finding him.
"Astarion?" she whispers, raggedly. Needing him to be real.
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Just like it’s his to hold on.
There’s a lot about this world he tolerates. Cedes to, in fact. Little things he’s willing to lose in exchange for the benefit of freedom.
She isn’t one of them.
“Guilty, darling.” He teases, the words stretched narrow under the mutual sense of disorienting misery that clings. Humor might not break the surface of it, but it’s worth trying anyway.
“Though it certainly took you long enough to notice.”
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She is loud, in the circle made by his arms. Soft gasps. The tenderness of the attempted levity brings tears to her eyes, and they skip down her cheeks unchecked.
It's been some time since she's cracked so badly in front of someone.
"Fuck," she gasps, thickly, and puts her face in his shoulder, trembling. Trusting that he'll guard, for a second. The screams have stopped -- they've preyed on her attention, and for the moment they no longer have it.
"Did you hear it?" she asks, softly. It was something. There had to be something. She wouldn't be set off like that out of nowhere. Even if they didn't hear the same thing-
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But if he thought to grit out a show of anything at all, it’s gone the second she falls against him, all but whimpering under the weight of her own torment. Cold, either from the castle, or dread— or the binding grasp of her memories, instead.
His shirt is damp, now. He doesn’t need to look to know why.
“It was him, wasn’t it.” Those baying sounds, all lowing and wounded. Something trapped. Something dying. Twisted by the Fade into pure, rotted poison.
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Ellie's breathing is shallow, still. She comes back in flickers, dragging herself to reality like coming back from a night terror.
"Yeah," she whispers, thickly.
"... you hear where it was coming from?"
It's always somewhere. And she can never get to him.
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Confession slow, tinged with an uneasiness that might border on unfair; he doesn't want her giving chase. Doesn't want her roaming endlessly through looping corridors until her feet blister and her body stumbles, dazed with the promise of proximity.
That if she presses on just a little farther, he'll be there, waiting to be saved this time.
So his hand is to the back of her head, gloved thumb stroking its way through dark hair as her breathing runs ragged— and slow— and heaving all over again in unfixed patterns. Palm heavy. Chin set somewhere near her temple.
"How long have you been at it?" He asks, voice gone thin as paper. Quiet. Still.
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At first she doesn't understand the question -- Astarion knows that Joel died years ago, and she's been in this fucking nightmare ever since.
But it's this house. There's something in this fucking house, something wrong and rotten and haunted, and Astarion will be able to smell it -- the thick fungal spores and the smell of gunpowder, of blood and snow.
He's in the corner of the room, Ellie knows, and she's determined not to look. She knows what it looks like, she's seen it a million times. What she doesn't want is for Astarion to see it, too.
"Since the first floor," she says, scratchy-soft. "Been seeing him for longer than that."
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It isn’t a pitiable thing.
It’s an infuriating thing. A rabid thing. And though Astarion’s bearing is soft as supple silk where he’s wrapped himself around her, there’s such contempt in his eyes for a place so damnably wretched as this.
For the spirits that mock old scars, warbling like birds that only know how to regurgitate scraps.
"...since you first entered, in that case."
And there’s no way out in sight. Up or down, by his measure.
“Tell me what happened, then. All of it.”
Like purging bile, maybe, just maybe it’ll pick apart this nightmare at its seams to remember, rather than relive.
cw: gore, torture, murder
Tell me, he says, like Ellie's capable of forming the words to describe what happened, truly. Maybe it should be that simple. Maybe it is that simple.
It doesn't feel like it.
Ellie opens her mouth, and it feels like she's trying to breathe seawater. It clamps her throat shut. She doesn't want to have to say it. But on some level, she knows she must.
"... Joel and his brother Tommy disappeared on patrol. They didn't meet us at the check-in. I was with Dina, and Jesse- my friends." Her voice crumples, just in the slightest.
"I split up from the others. We'd cover more ground that way. When I tracked him to a house, I went inside, and... found sleeping bags. A group. And I could hear him. Screaming, in the basement. I'd never-"
Ellie pauses, gagging lightly.
"Never heard him scream like that before."
It's silent, around them, like the spirits of the house know that this is far more painful than any torture they could devise. Like they're hanging on her words.
"I went... down the stairs, and I saw him... on the ground. She'd had him there for hours. She'd- shot off his leg, had to tourniquet it so he wouldn't bleed out too f-fast. So she had plenty of time to make it hurt."
Ellie drags in a breath, furious, on the barest edge of control. But her voice has gone quiet, detached, like she's reciting something that happened to someone else.
"She had friends with her. A whole group of them, so he couldn't run. I fought them. I wasn't- it wasn't- enough. They held me down and I fucking. Watched."
Another breath, ragged, dragging, something that forces itself through her throat.
"I told her to stop. Begged her, and she..."
Ellie trails off, doesn't seem to quite realize that she hasn't finished the sentence.
... she doesn't have to, though. The ghosts take it for her. Behind Astarion, Abby's spectre stands over Joel's prone, beaten body, holding a steel golf club. She turns it in her hands, raises it up.
Even if neither of them see it, the horrific crunching noise is enough.
She jerks in his arms, as if she was the one hit. Breathless, wordless. For the moment, beyond it all.
continuing the cws ad infinitum just get out of here
There's no flinch when the spirits do precisely what they do best. Ellie jolting tightly in his arms. His body both still and stilling in contrast, keeping her held fast against the anguish that crashes through her, buckling the whole of her small frame.
Maybe two hundred years before now, the noise would shatter him, too.
As it stands, he's dead to it. It's only wet and brittle. Familiar in a way his mind blots out entirely on instinct, as though little more than static in his own unseen periphery. He'd done so much worse in his own time.
And sometimes, much as he refuses to let it in, there's a sickening sort of comfort in it, too.
No wonder she hates you, Astarion thinks again in muted reprise, combing back the tangles in her hair with arched fingers. Pale lines slipping beneath a darker surface as though swimming. No wonder she tried to wound you, hunting you to the ends of the earth itself.
"And before then?" He presses, the words slow and sliding between the gaps in his fangs.
"Before he went missing."
cw: homophobia, slurs
Before he went missing.
"How would you rate our kiss?" Dina says, cocky and flirting and just the smallest bit anxious. A young lover. The smell of weed, gunpowder, blood, and the crook of Dina's neck. The scent of her hair.
Music crashes around them, Crooked Still, and ghostly dancing figures surround them, whirling, spinning. Joyous. The taste of brandy on her tongue. A kiss.
"Hey. This is a family event. Remember next time, there's kids around." A male voice, harsh, and the specters form like shadows around them. Ellie tenses in Astarion's arms, watching breathlessly.
"Yeah, like you're setting such a great example," Dina answers, as the shadows still around them. She's visible now, disheveled and lovely, with dark snapping eyes and hair falling out of where it's tied back. Her hand is tight around Ellie's shade.
"Just what this town needs. Another loudmouth dyke."
The voices scramble, run together and Ellie rushes him, and Dina's calling out.
"Ellie! Ellie, don't!"
Before Ellie can get there, though, another ghost materializes from nowhere. Joel.
Healthy, whole. He cuts between Ellie and the man, tall and imposing, his voice low and gruff, and pushes him back several steps. They struggle, and the man backs off as others come to aid them, breaking everything up before it comes to blows.
Joel turns. Approaches her.
Her. The Ellie in Astarion's arms, who is staring at him because she can't look anywhere else.
"... are you all right, kiddo?" he asks, anger shifting to concern. To love.
A breathless sound cracks out of her, a tear running down her cheek. She can't answer him.
Instead, her shade does. It pushes through her, a version of herself she no longer is, but still carries with her.
"I don't need your fucking help, Joel."
The hurt on his face is beyond words. He looks away from her, can't bear to meet her eyes. Folds and crumples into himself. Defeated.
"Right," he whispers.
And leaves.
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And it isn’t like a light bulb clicking or a momentary spark. It isn’t a grand moment of understanding. It isn’t anything but a tangled snarl of sickening memories clotting her heart, her mind. The painful reality. The simple, ugly truth— that she’s cold, and she’s wounded, and she’s tired there, shivering in his arms from a hundred little cuts harbored in the shadow of a past she can’t change.
The lights go dim on that scene, and the air is frigid as his fingers, and he continues coursing them on in slowed patters falling down across her head. Her neck. Her shoulders.
“You were there when he died.” Astarion says, like a digging reminder. Like a segue.
She was there. She wept. She fought. She pleaded.
And so.
“He knew you cared.”
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Ellie's voice is thick, deadened to the world.
"That I was there. He was too far gone."
She'd seen his eyes. She'd screamed for him, screamed his name. She'd told him to get up. She'd begged him to get up.
Did it make it better, or worse? That she was there? Was it easier? Would it have been better? What if she'd gotten there afterward, found a corpse instead of something quickly on the way to becoming one, his murderers fled instead of nearly finished? Was it better to have fought and failed to save him? Or was it better not to have had the chance at all?
"But he knew I cared."
Ellie chokes it out, softly. It's not a regret, so the whispers of the ghosts are formless, like a drawn breath, like they're waiting for her to speak.
"... he knew I missed him. He knew-"
It comes in fragments, that moment after Joel turned away from her, when the rage fled her in a rush. Left her grieving, longing, hurting from punishing them both.
"He knew I couldn't let him go."
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His nerves have gone dead as rotten roots after two centuries of weeping over his own split wounds. He can't spill more now— he can't mourn her plight— and she doesn't need it, anyway. Not any more than he'd want her grieving over the man he once was. One she never knew, and never had the chance to know.
Things are only what they are. Horrid and hateful. Muddied by fate.
But he has her now. And she has him.
"And so you haven't." He murmurs, fitting the words against her skin. If she had forgotten Joel, this place, these images— they'd never have existed in the first place.
"But you should let the memories rest, darling. Keep them away from these wretched ghosts and their need for more pain."
And, to that extent, he shifts in how he holds her: drawing her up into his arms, hold fit beneath her shoulders and the underside of her legs, carrying her with little effort.
She's always been light as a feather in his grasp.
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Ellie never truly will. The only thing that will help is time. She blames herself, she has always blamed herself, and letting that guilt go, letting herself be happy, feels like the worst type of betrayal.
Sometimes, she understands that living and being happy is the best way to remember Joel. That he gave her a chance, and he'd do it all over again, no matter the price. She knows that. But other times, the guilt and grief and pain take her back, and she's a devastated little girl again, watching everyone she loves slip through her fingers. If it hadn't been for her, if she'd died in that hospital, as she meant to-
Astarion lifts her, and Ellie holds onto him tightly, pressing her face into the side of his neck as the dam gives way.
It's not a worsening of the pain. If anything, it's a catharsis. A purging. A surrender, and a trust.
Astarion can take this, can carry her without staggering when she needs it, and he's the one person she's not afraid of breaking. He will not mire himself in her hurts. He has been through so much worse.
Around them, the ghosts cry out wordlessly, but they are echoes now. They no longer feel so very real.