Entry tags:
- ! open,
- abby,
- alexandrie d'asgard,
- bastien,
- benedict quintus artemaeus,
- byerly rutyer,
- derrica,
- ellie,
- gwenaëlle baudin,
- james flint,
- john silver,
- julius,
- loki,
- matthias,
- obeisance barrow,
- petrana de cedoux,
- tiffany hart,
- { astarion },
- { dante sparda },
- { emet-selch },
- { james holden },
- { jone },
- { sidony veranas },
- { sylvie },
- { tony stark }
open | holiday spirits
WHO: Whoever, plus some spirits.
WHAT: Everyone spends an evening regretting the past. So basically a normal night.
WHEN: Wintermarch 5-6
WHERE: A castle in the mountains north of Kirkwall
NOTES: OOC post including less vague/pretentious haunting mechanic descriptions. Fantasy violence and swearing and so on are assumed, but please use content warnings in your subject lines for things like explicit gore or sex, slavery content, body horror, etc., if you go any of those routes.
WHAT: Everyone spends an evening regretting the past. So basically a normal night.
WHEN: Wintermarch 5-6
WHERE: A castle in the mountains north of Kirkwall
NOTES: OOC post including less vague/pretentious haunting mechanic descriptions. Fantasy violence and swearing and so on are assumed, but please use content warnings in your subject lines for things like explicit gore or sex, slavery content, body horror, etc., if you go any of those routes.

THE CASTLE
Their convenient shelter from the unexpected blizzard that whips up around them in the mountain pass isn't too convenient. Anyone with a reasonable detailed map will find it marked there; reaching its clifftop location requires a slight detour. When they approach, it has no warm ethereal glow or suspiciously welcoming lit torches. The windows stay dark. The portcullis is raised just high enough to be ducked under, but the heavy doors of the keep don't swing open to welcome them.
The only immediate sign that something is amiss is the thorough, all-encompassing emptiness of the place, and it might take some investigation before that begins to feel strange. The fortress' abandonment seems recent and abrupt: ample firewood has been cut and stacked for the winter, nothing has been done to protect the furniture or strip the beds, the kitchen is fully stocked and even has some perishables that do not seem close to perishing, the stables are equipped to comfortably keep any animals along for the journey, and a chess board before the hearth in the (humble) grand hall seems to have been left mid-game. But there are no messages, no bodies, no footsteps dimpling the crunchy layer of old snow accumulated in the bailey beneath the fresh snowfall.
As they search, the castle's visitors may begin to find signs that the castle hasn't been entirely abandoned. It begins with whispers emanating from the dark ends of corridors, voices they recognize and others they don't, or faces both familiar and unfamiliar flashing in still water or window panes when firelight hits right, or forms moving on the edge of vision but vanishing before they can be looked at directly.
By the time this becomes worrisome enough to drive anyone back out of the castle, the portcullis has fallen shut and won't budge. Neither will any other doors to the outside. The windows won't break; doors won't give way even to makeshift battering rams. The only walls that can be climbed or reached by stairs face out over a deep ravine. It might be a survivable climb, if the wind and weather allowed, but it would not be a survivable fall.
THE SPIRITS
--so back inside, then.
The keep is built like the Gallows' towers, square and tall, and it won't take long for Riftwatch to notice that whatever is wrong is more wrong the higher they climb. The whispers and glimpses on the lowest floor become voices and lingering shadowy figures on the second. Someone might turn and find their hand briefly held by an unfamiliar man's, warm and real for the moment it takes him to say, "Come with me." Or behind them, a woman's shocked and seething voice says, "What are you doing?" Or maybe it's a hand they do know and a voice saying something they've heard before.
As people venture to the higher floors--whether intrepidly seeking the source or involuntarily herded onward by spirits--these moments will begin to last and linger and repeat. And those who don't dare venture higher won't be exempt, confronted by stronger spirits that emerge like ants from a kicked hive as the upper floors are disturbed.
As they approach the uppermost floor, reality will begin to slip away from them. They may find themselves lost in a maze of rooms, even though that shouldn't be possible in so few square feet, and ultimately enveloped in comforting worlds where they didn't do that thing they regret and that, like dreams, feel real until they suddenly don't--until something is too unbelievable, until someone interrupts, or until a demon is holding them under the water of the warm bath they were tempted into, shoving them off a balcony, or whispering into their ears and minds, let me in and you can keep it.
The hauntings will continue until
THE END
When it ends, it ends abruptly. Weaker spirits vanish; stronger ones retreat into the dark. The lesser demons on the upper floors linger, and some may put up a last-ditch physical fight, but without their superior, they've lost most of their mental pull and emotional sway. The castle has changed, too. Its abandonment no longer looks so recent. The food and firewood is gone, along with any sense of warmth or satiety anyone used them to acquire earlier. There is dust where none was before, mildew and rot, and a few scattered, unfortunate skeletons.
The sun is not quite up, the sky a faintly luminescent grey. But the weather is survivable, though it will be slower travel than it would have been without the fresh snow. The doors will open, and the portcullis will raise. Everyone can set off on their cold, hours-long journey back to the city. Talking about their feelings or avoiding eye contact the entire time: the choice is theirs.
shhh shhh
Naomi moves so that he can look to Derrica and still have her by his side. And that's important, because it feels impossible to turn his back on her right now. He hasn't seen Naomi in nearly a year; or maybe only in the few minutes it took her to reach their cabin first. It doesn't matter. Still, confusion settles into his expression as he takes in the strange sight of Derrica here.
But only momentarily. He's seen Derrica and Naomi together before. Even if that was in an infirmary, even if that was in —
"Jim?" Naomi prompts.
"Yeah," he says, looking from Derrica to her, then back. "Naomi, this is Derrica. Derrica, you know Naomi."
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There is a moment where he does not know her. Or where he cannot place her. Derrica observes the moment of confusion and it does nothing to dispel the urge to wrench him away from this pretty scene.
“I do.”
Not well, but we’ll enough to recognize a fair counterfeit.
“Jim,” still has a note of worry, even though Derrica tries to school her features into neutrality. “We can’t stay her. We were looking for a way out.”
Please remember.
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She moves to face him, and she says, "Why would you leave me again?"
Whatever it is he was about to say to Derrica, whether because he's begun to remember or not, is lost as his attention snaps to those words. "I wouldn't — " is the easiest, most reflexive thing to say in the world. "Of course I wouldn't."
The faint sounds of Alex and Amos, elsewhere but not far, seem to grow louder for a moment. This is home. Where is there to go?
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Derrica knows this. And she knows it won’t make this any less painful for Holden, when she inevitably has to pull him away.
There is no configuration of events in which she could leave him here, to be devoured by this place. But maybe he won’t thank her for that, in the end.
Still.
“Jim,” she repeats, firmer, stepping in to the strangeness of this room. “Jim, she isn’t real. I know you want her to be, but she isn’t. Please come with me.”
Please hangs in the air, weighted down by urgency.
:)
"Derrica — "
But Naomi says, "Does it matter?"
She reaches for his face now, turns it back towards her. The force isn't much, but resisting feels unthinkable. She goes on,
"You could stay here. You'd be happy. Don't you want that?" He doesn't say no. But he doesn't say yes, either. Just closes his eyes, listening to her voice. "You aren't now. You never will be, out there."
She pauses. He doesn't argue.
"You know it's true. All you have to do is say yes to me."
mom save deployed
Should be something Holden says for himself, but Derrica can't gamble on whether or not he will.
She knows spirits. And she knows that saying yes welcomes, whether intentional or not. It's what had scared her about what Richard had been telling her. It's what terrifies her now.
Naomi Nagata is taller than she is. It doesn't deter Derrica from stepping into the sliver of space between them, one arm stretched out as if it's possibly to sweep Holden behind her.
"I know what you are," is not for Holden. It's for the spirit wearing Naomi Nagata's face. "And you can't keep him. I'm sorry."
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"No," Jim agrees after a moment. From behind, his hands come onto Derrica's shoulders — maybe for support, or for the reminder of something real. Someone real. And it's real, too, the anger in his voice, when he goes on, "Now get the fuck out of my sight."
There's no actual threat he can make against a spirit. He doesn't have any magical ability. He's an ordinary human, or less, depending on who you ask in Thedas. But Derrica isn't. And there are so many other possible targets stumbling around this fortress. So the spirit sneers, even as it starts to dissipate, lose the form of that particular woman.
And then the entire illusion vanishes, and they're only standing in a cold, dark room.
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The idea of having to wrench him from her alongside the possibility of him reacting badly, fighting her, was a complete nightmare. She'd have had to fight him right alongside whatever this spirit manifested itself as, and that would have been—
But it isn't going to happen.
"Jim," she murmurs into the quiet. She's already turning towards him, reaching for his hands. What is there to say? She's sorry. It wasn't real, but it had felt real for him. She can't imagine how painful it had been to dispel the embodiment of what he must miss the most.
Was it true? Was he unhappy here? She can't ask, but the weight of that sticks with her.
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No, this is better. Just a moment, like this, until he can pack away the thing he rejected and every trembling feeling about it, and return to what needs to be done.
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"I'm sorry," she murmurs against his temple. "I'm so sorry."
Alone in this dark room, Derrica tries to think of a way to push the memory of that sneer had looked like on Naomi Nagata's face. What an awful thing, to dangle what Holden must want the most in front of him.
It terrifies her, thinking what might have happened if Holden had stepped into this room on his own.
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Every floor of this fortress, he's found ghosts who blamed him for their deaths. For living when they had not. None of it was a thought he hasn't had for himself, but to see their faces, hear their voices as they said it —
the dead rising, briefly, to agree with him.
Naomi, just out reach, promising him that he will never be happy. And hasn't he thought that too? The real Naomi Nagata would never want anything but for his well-being. Has never, at home, or briefly here. It's a disservice to her to set this image alongside the real woman, but right now,
he can't bring himself to look up. He only shakes his head: no, it's not her fault. She doesn't have to apologize.
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She can't say anything else. It's not okay. It won't be okay. It's not as easy as that. She remembers the look on his face the one time they'd spoken of this.
"It wasn't real," is hardly help either. Because what does it matter that it wasn't real? He'd pushed Naomi away regardless. And there is no way to return, none that they have discovered.
For a moment, there's just the drag of her fingers through his hair and the soft press of her mouth at his temple, in his hair.
"I'm so sorry," again, a murmur. "I know it doesn't matter what it was. But I promise, nothing it said was true."
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"It's okay." Softly at first. Then, closer to normal volume, lifting his head: "It's okay. I'm okay."
Maybe he means, it's okay, don't worry. Or I'm okay, despite everything. Or, it's okay even if what the spirit said is true. It's okay, at least, right now, because it has to be. They're still trapped in this place. Another spirit could attack them at any time.
So he pulls away, moves to straighten back to standing.
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In the same moment as she tightens her grasp on him, keeps Holden anchored close.
"You aren't."
There's no reason he needs to be. There's no reason why hearing such a thing from spirits would be different than hearing a thing from Naomi herself. It's still a potent kind of pain. It would have kept those spirits glutted on his contentment for months, and months.
Her fingers are very gentle at the nape of his neck, nudging into the curls there.
"You don't have to be," is true, even though Derrica doesn't think it will be very convincing to Holden, so she tacks on, "Not with me."
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"It doesn't matter," he says instead, and that's closer to true. Heavy with resignation. "I've known I can't have that for a while."
Have Naomi, but if that's all he meant, he would've said her. Have a home. Have someone to love, and be loved by. He's here in Thedas for a reason. There are things he needs to be here. Happy isn't one of them.
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The sweep of her fingers through his hair resumes, keeping him folded down into her.
"I know it won't be the same," Derrica acknowledges. Because she knows, she knows, that nothing will ever replace what's been lost. And that it will take time for the loss to feel anything less than overwhelming. "You aren't alone here, Jim."
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"Derrica," he murmurs, "you can let go. I'm not going to — "
Trip and fall into another spirit-induced hallucination, stay there for good this time? Just fall apart?
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Holden will bear up under this pain because it is what he does. She knows this about him. Holden is strong even when he is suffering.
It's admirable, and it's painful all at once.
When she does loosen her grip, it's only be degrees. Keeping him close enough to take his face in her hands.
"But you have to let yourself feel it sometime," is very soft, her eyes searching his face as she tells him this.
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There really had been nothing real to that vision. That might be comforting, later.
His own hands go from her back to her elbows, loosely. Still a point of contact, even as they slowly begin to pull apart.
"Remind me of that when we get out of here."
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But he isn't allowed to part entirely, not before she draws his head down to put a soft kiss to his forehead.
"After we've left."
And maybe a reprieve until they return to Kirkwall. Until then, they can attend to the matter at hand: rounding up their people and finding a way out, or finding a way to dispel the spirits gathered here.