Entry tags:
- ! open,
- abby,
- alexandrie d'asgard,
- bastien,
- benedict quintus artemaeus,
- byerly rutyer,
- derrica,
- ellie,
- gwenaëlle baudin,
- james flint,
- john silver,
- julius,
- loki,
- matthias,
- obeisance barrow,
- petrana de cedoux,
- tiffany hart,
- { astarion },
- { dante sparda },
- { emet-selch },
- { james holden },
- { jone },
- { sidony veranas },
- { sylvie },
- { tony stark }
open | holiday spirits
WHO: Whoever, plus some spirits.
WHAT: Everyone spends an evening regretting the past. So basically a normal night.
WHEN: Wintermarch 5-6
WHERE: A castle in the mountains north of Kirkwall
NOTES: OOC post including less vague/pretentious haunting mechanic descriptions. Fantasy violence and swearing and so on are assumed, but please use content warnings in your subject lines for things like explicit gore or sex, slavery content, body horror, etc., if you go any of those routes.
WHAT: Everyone spends an evening regretting the past. So basically a normal night.
WHEN: Wintermarch 5-6
WHERE: A castle in the mountains north of Kirkwall
NOTES: OOC post including less vague/pretentious haunting mechanic descriptions. Fantasy violence and swearing and so on are assumed, but please use content warnings in your subject lines for things like explicit gore or sex, slavery content, body horror, etc., if you go any of those routes.

THE CASTLE
Their convenient shelter from the unexpected blizzard that whips up around them in the mountain pass isn't too convenient. Anyone with a reasonable detailed map will find it marked there; reaching its clifftop location requires a slight detour. When they approach, it has no warm ethereal glow or suspiciously welcoming lit torches. The windows stay dark. The portcullis is raised just high enough to be ducked under, but the heavy doors of the keep don't swing open to welcome them.
The only immediate sign that something is amiss is the thorough, all-encompassing emptiness of the place, and it might take some investigation before that begins to feel strange. The fortress' abandonment seems recent and abrupt: ample firewood has been cut and stacked for the winter, nothing has been done to protect the furniture or strip the beds, the kitchen is fully stocked and even has some perishables that do not seem close to perishing, the stables are equipped to comfortably keep any animals along for the journey, and a chess board before the hearth in the (humble) grand hall seems to have been left mid-game. But there are no messages, no bodies, no footsteps dimpling the crunchy layer of old snow accumulated in the bailey beneath the fresh snowfall.
As they search, the castle's visitors may begin to find signs that the castle hasn't been entirely abandoned. It begins with whispers emanating from the dark ends of corridors, voices they recognize and others they don't, or faces both familiar and unfamiliar flashing in still water or window panes when firelight hits right, or forms moving on the edge of vision but vanishing before they can be looked at directly.
By the time this becomes worrisome enough to drive anyone back out of the castle, the portcullis has fallen shut and won't budge. Neither will any other doors to the outside. The windows won't break; doors won't give way even to makeshift battering rams. The only walls that can be climbed or reached by stairs face out over a deep ravine. It might be a survivable climb, if the wind and weather allowed, but it would not be a survivable fall.
THE SPIRITS
--so back inside, then.
The keep is built like the Gallows' towers, square and tall, and it won't take long for Riftwatch to notice that whatever is wrong is more wrong the higher they climb. The whispers and glimpses on the lowest floor become voices and lingering shadowy figures on the second. Someone might turn and find their hand briefly held by an unfamiliar man's, warm and real for the moment it takes him to say, "Come with me." Or behind them, a woman's shocked and seething voice says, "What are you doing?" Or maybe it's a hand they do know and a voice saying something they've heard before.
As people venture to the higher floors--whether intrepidly seeking the source or involuntarily herded onward by spirits--these moments will begin to last and linger and repeat. And those who don't dare venture higher won't be exempt, confronted by stronger spirits that emerge like ants from a kicked hive as the upper floors are disturbed.
As they approach the uppermost floor, reality will begin to slip away from them. They may find themselves lost in a maze of rooms, even though that shouldn't be possible in so few square feet, and ultimately enveloped in comforting worlds where they didn't do that thing they regret and that, like dreams, feel real until they suddenly don't--until something is too unbelievable, until someone interrupts, or until a demon is holding them under the water of the warm bath they were tempted into, shoving them off a balcony, or whispering into their ears and minds, let me in and you can keep it.
The hauntings will continue until
THE END
When it ends, it ends abruptly. Weaker spirits vanish; stronger ones retreat into the dark. The lesser demons on the upper floors linger, and some may put up a last-ditch physical fight, but without their superior, they've lost most of their mental pull and emotional sway. The castle has changed, too. Its abandonment no longer looks so recent. The food and firewood is gone, along with any sense of warmth or satiety anyone used them to acquire earlier. There is dust where none was before, mildew and rot, and a few scattered, unfortunate skeletons.
The sun is not quite up, the sky a faintly luminescent grey. But the weather is survivable, though it will be slower travel than it would have been without the fresh snow. The doors will open, and the portcullis will raise. Everyone can set off on their cold, hours-long journey back to the city. Talking about their feelings or avoiding eye contact the entire time: the choice is theirs.
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But Astarion looks striken as opposed to accepting of this fact, and so Loki moves, leaning forward so that his forehead is pressed against Astarion's, hand on the other man's shoulder before it moves upward to settle at the side of Astarion's neck. His eyes are shut, and, as always, Astarion smells of lilac and leather oils. Loki takes a deep breath in before he speaks again.
"I shouldn't have asked that," he admits, in the tone of an apology. It wasn't fair, to Astarion in particular. "None of it is real, no matter how much truth lies within. We just have to survive the night, hm?" And they've survived so much already, one night shouldn't be more difficult.
Right? He opens his eyes.
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"Or you could've just done this before asking." Astarion teases in a feeble attempt at forced levity, fitting arched fingertips to the edges of Loki's coat.
Counting stitches.
"I would never have left my home, the night I was meant to die. I— can't remember what it looked like, or even what I was doing when I went out, but if I'd stayed in, I'd never have been attacked by humans. And if I'd never been attacked, Cazador would never have offered me immortality— and so on, and miserably so forth."
A beat, before the figurative card turns over:
"What would you have done differently?"
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This place is haunted, certainly; is haunting them most definitely. He hates it. He hates the reminder of what's missing from the life he's attempted to carve out for himself in half a year or so of living in Thedas, of the life and family he practically squandered in the past and may never well see again.
His thumb comes up, tracing the shell of Astarion's ear. It's a very narrow sort of bridge between friendship and more that he's currently traversing, Loki knows, and there are limits to how far this will probably go tonight. But it's a good distraction from the noise around them.
Doesn't mean he doesn't mean it, however.
"Perhaps I would have traveled instead of becoming a harbinger of war to Midgard for the Mad Titan. Done any number of things. Chased power in a way that didn't spell the end for so many, didn't cause an entire planet to hate me." Another of those soft snorts. There was a time when he didn't care if he was hated or not, as long as everyone knew his name. Perhaps he is growing old. "I would have spoken with my mother, again, if I could, instead of dismissing her."
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Or maybe that’s just his own imagination.
More than that, he supposes this could all be little more than a conjured figment. But when some illusions are all paper thin and some are tangible as jagged bone, it’s difficult to believe the entirety of this scene laid out before him is false— the one presently beneath his fingers most of all.
His thumb catches the jagged edge of something. A place where the fabric's been torn.
“You sent her away?”
Why is the unspoken question, loud enough to hear anyway.
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Loki shakes his head a little bit. "They'd lied to me, the two of them, about who I was. Where I came from. For centuries, and I was...I was furious. I didn't care about their feelings, I didn't care about them, and I knew she'd try to talk me out of it. Convince me to take some other path, make some other choice, and I didn't want to hear it. So when she came to me, it was a... spell, a projection of her. And I dismissed it."
And that was the last time he saw her; before he learned that he's supposed to put into motion the wheels of fate that lead to her death. And coming here had been little different, to learn that she'd been dead and gone for over a year.
"Now I'll never see her again."
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Not love, he thinks.
Not family, or longing, or need the way that true closeness breeds.
Astarion's fingers flex over the span of Loki's chest, coat and shirt alike, and rather than digging in with his own reflexive commentary (she lied to you, made you into a fool, why would you grieve her?), he asks instead:
"Why would they deceive you like that?"
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And now they're gone, unreachable, and he's human now so perhaps none of it actually matters.
"Asgardians. Never big on the rectitude, seems like."
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It's like filling in a picture one piece at a given time— and in this case, he already knows Loki doesn't have all of them, himself.
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He lifts his hand, palm up. Above it hovers an illusion of himself, dressed in the style that Astarion has seen him in before. After a moment the illusion begins to elongate, the image of Loki growing taller, with blue skin and red ices.
"Ice giants," he says. "The great evil, the boogeymen children were warned would steal them as they slept if they were bad."
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"But now I'm human. Perhaps I should feel fortunate I wasn't rendered Qunari."
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It isn't quite teasing, only in the sense that while he does joke, it isn't about the subject matter— only the timing. The place. The misery still lurking behind it all.
His flexed smile is thin.
His hand finds its way to Loki's cheek in the very next beat.
"I think it's a pity you weren't."
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"I think you would like that. Hells, I might even, should we be completely honest."
Being stronger and stranger to look at from out the gate. Not a terrible thing. Bluish skin, large horns, not terrible either.
"What will you do first, when we've left this place and it's hauntings behind us?"
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It's a simple confession, drawn down as his hand falls away once more. As the whole of his grip abates, and the world itself within the confines of their present space feels smaller, and quieter, and less intrusive than before.
Whether that's good or bad, he doesn't know.
"I'll survive, same as I did before." Same as he's always done.
"The shape of my past is—" Stop-start, that thought. All rough-edged and ugly, and he hesitates to let it form in a place like this. "You know it already: I can't be tempted back into its arms."
Not like so many of the other illusions here.
"But..." His lips purse slightly, attention drifting. "I suppose it's worth saying that there's always a chance you'll see her again. Your mother."
goodness this is so late lo siento
Loki turns his head so that he can look at Astarion's face from entirely too close up. Takes in the planes of it, where the light hits and where things fall in shadow, and he shakes his head a little bit. The illusion of himself as a jotun fades from sight.
"It would not be the same, I think. She would know a different version of me."