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Kostos Averesch ([personal profile] exequy) wrote in [community profile] faderift2022-07-26 11:20 am

open | full circle pt 2

WHO: Many people, mostly mages and rifters and Templars/Seekers
WHAT: Stop that Circle!
WHEN: Late Solace
WHERE: The College of Magi, Cumberland, Nevarra
NOTES: OOC post! Please note we are not doing the points game part yet. But we will later and your tags will still count then.


I. THE JOURNEY

After the meeting, there's time to talk, pack (lightly), and get a full night's sleep. But after an early breakfast the next morning, everyone heads up to the eyrie at the top of the Gallows' central tower to load onto griffons.

They do it with the sanction of the Division Heads, accompanied by some rules, like no violence, and some mandatory company. A few Templars (and a Seeker) are sent along with them, in Riftwatch uniform rather than their more traditional and more inflammatory armor. Mages and rifters and interested others have the choice of donning their uniforms or not.

The trip to Cumberland is short an uneventful. Trained griffon riders and the animals they've bonded with lead the flock, but other griffons follow cooperatively behind, each carrying one or two riders and their effects. The group lands once or twice in the Planascene Forest to stretch their legs, have a meal, etc., while the griffons help themselves to a buffet of wildlife. A few of those without bonded riders might need some extra persuasion to get back in line, when it's time to go, but nothing goes significantly wrong.

II. THE COLLEGE OF MAGI

It's late and dark when they swoop down on the city, but the College of Magi is easy to spot, because it's a palace with a hammered-gold dome roof that shines in the moonlight. The griffons land and consent to being tethered in an enclosed courtyard that, after years of neglect, is no worse off if they trample the greenery a bit. The doors inside are guarded not by Templars, but by Cumberland city guards assigned to keep looters out of the palace in the mages' absences. Once they've taken in the presence of the griffons and uniforms, they put up no resistance to Riftwatch's entrance.

Inside, the halls are quiet and opulent: in addition to the famous collection of sandstone busts of every Grand Enchanter from the last 600 years lining the entrance hall, there are marble pillars, bright frescoes, vases, art, gilded vines crawling the walls. Everything shines and glitters in the light from the braziers on the walls.

The mage who comes scuttling down the hall to give them a bewildered greeting, robes flapping and a basket of bread on his arm, is Senior Enchanter Erfried Neumayer, noted Loyalist, formerly of Hossberg. He is well into his nineties, spry but mostly blind, and very friendly. He explains, eventually and in pieces, that they have not even started the conclave, unaware they might have needed to rush, and the others are currently having a late dinner and an idle chat in the dining hall. Thus the bread.

The rest of the mages are not glad to see them, albeit mostly in a polite and/or passive-aggressive way. They make a fuss about not being prepared to house or feed any additional participants, but in the end do show everyone to one of the bunk bed-filled rooms that used to house apprentices.

The first night and every night afterwards, Riftwatch has overnight watches—not to watch for danger, but to make sure the other mages don't sneak around and convene while they're asleep. (A few of them might be caught trying to organize exactly that.) The beds are musty from years of disuse but otherwise fine. Food is grudgingly provided.

Before, after, and between sessions on the floor, there's time to explore the palace. Said to have been donated by a Duchess to keep her mage child in the comfort she was accustomed to, the College is an arguably over-the-top display of wealth and comfort, dusty from disuse but still overflowing with gilding and cushions, baths and kettles enchanted to heat and cups enchanted to cool and dozens of other magical novelties that make life a little more comfortable, art and a badminton field and a massive library. The Harrowing Chamber looks like a place where someone would be honored to complete a rite of passage; the dungeon exists but is small, clean, and devoid of spooky skeletons. It's exactly the sort of place that could serve as evidence that living in a Circle was great, actually.

III. THE CONCLAVE

The conclave, such as it is, begins the next morning, in a room whose domed mahogany ceiling has had it dubbed the Red Auditorium. It's designed to hold a few hundred attendees at a time, so the fifty or so Loyalists (and Aequitarians and Lucrosians) and dozen-plus Riftwatchers have plenty of elbow room.

At least in a parliamentary sense, Senior Enchanter Erfried is in charge—to Riftwatch's benefit. The Loyalist Contingent leads with an attempt to ignore Riftwatch's presence and ram their proposal through with no further discussion or procedure on numbers alone, but Erfried is a stickler for the rules. The name of the game is delay, distract, divert.

Fortunately, the mages prove delayable, distractible, and divertable. Creating a record of attendees and participants devolves into a series of short debates about who counts as a Circle Enchanter anymore and whether rifters have any right to be there, which easily take up half a day. From there, arguments about whether the Conclave has met all the finicky requirements to actually count as a Conclave swallow a few hours as well. Unfortunately, two witnesses profess a messenger was sent to alert the Grand Enchanter, and there's no evidence she did not reach it, so Erfried allows things to continue. In theory. Having spent so much of the day on procedural matters, there's no time to get into substance before adjourning for the evening.

Breakfast the next morning is interrupted by the arrival of the small team Riftwatch sent to alert the rebel mages at the front—and by Grand Enchanter Fiona herself, riding behind Ellie on Artichoke. She's only one mage, but she's an angry and important one. And others are coming. She makes a show of being concerned about whether it will be enough people to counteract the fifty-odd Loyalists, to avoid inspiring them to work too hard, but within Riftwatch, word gets around that they'll definitely have the numbers. All they have to do is stall.

The Loyalists do make every effort to resume the proceedings and make progress toward voting on their proposal. How unfortunate that circumstances prevent it. (Invent your own circumstances. Filibustering, general chaos, and minor property damage are all fair game.)

IV. THE CALVARY & THE DEBATE

The Grand Enchanter's people arrive only a few hours later than expected. There are easily a hundred of them—enough to doom the proposal, certainly. There's a sense of doom among the Loyalists when the proceedings resume. A few leave early in defeat. But the rest stick around, as they finally, finally proceed into discussing and voting on the substance of the proposal, and make fairly impassioned arguments on its behalf.

They evoke the history of the Circles: a compromise that saved them from being hunted by the early Inquisition and from being confined in Chantries to do nothing with their gifts but keep the fires lit. The hundreds of years of peace (they say) compared to what's come before and what will come after.

They say there was a mage child in the Nahashin Marshes, turned out by his illiterate and reclusive family, who appears to have lived alone for several years before recently reappearing, warped from possession, to slaughter his entire village. A town in Antiva realized a few of its new residents were mages and burned their house down, killing one and leaving the others with nowhere to go. A young fellow who'd wandered away from the Inquisition's camps once he came of age was caught picking pockets in Ferelden's West Hill and, in his attempts to flee, froze all of the tavern's occupants solid. Several didn't survive the thawing. They report—with no actual statistics, but a few anecdotes—that incidents of (child abuse cw) suspicious child drownings are on the rise. They ask, rhetorically, whether rifters think they will be left in peace by their neighbors when Riftwatch is gone.

And they go on for quite some time about their responsibility to Thedas. The risk of mages amassing power and establishing dynasties—a hundred years stand between that and a new Tevinter, optimistically. The risk of kings and emperors seizing control of the mages within their own borders, if mages are beholden to them rather than to the Chantry, and wielding them against their own people or their neighbors.

They have a reason for every item in the proposal. It's all very depressing and very sincere. A sizable number of the rebel mages from the front are moved by the presentation of the problem, if not convinced that their solution is correct.

But in addition to talking (and talking and talking), they also listen. They don't really have a choice, now that they're outnumbered. While only Circle Enchanters are technically permitted to vote in the College, Erfried will give anyone the floor for at least a few minutes. And between impassioned speeches, there are regular recesses when the Red Auditorium dissolves into more private conversations. Some are quiet, some are loud—but most mages have years of training in keeping their composure, so only a couple get worse than half-raised voices.

V. CUMBERLAND

With the mages from the front, the pressure on Riftwatch lets up somewhat. There's no longer a need for every Riftwatcher to be on-site at all hours of the day to prevent the Loyalist contingent from voting, so there's time to slip out into the city, whether for business—posting messages, buying supplies, running Riftwatch errands unrelated to mages and Circles—or just a break.

VI. THE RESOLUTION

In the end, not much happens. The proposal is voted down. It is not replaced by anything. But a date is set, three months in the future, to reconvene in a more orderly and less underhanded way to consider other options for mages' (and rifters') future. The Grand Enchanter also consents, in good spirits, to this future gathering deciding whether she stays in charge.

Riftwatch is invited. They have until then to do whatever maneuvering and advocacy they can.

It counts as a victory.


NPC NOTES

  • You can do threads with NPC'd mages, or you can thread around their presence: discuss strategy, complain about a conversation with an NPC that happened off screen, take a break from the speeches outside, etc.
  • Feel extremely free to make up NPC mages of your own! For natives this can include mages they already know or have history with. If you make up an NPC who you'd like kept in mind in the future, you can put them on the wiki page for this plot.
  • The Loyalist camp consists mainly of Loyalists, but also some Aequitarians and Lucrosians. They're a mix of mages who sat out the war, Loyalists who fought with Madame de Fer against the rebels, and mages who fought with the rebellion but have since come around to wanting some kind of system back.
  • The rebel mages who arrive on scene are mainly Libertarians, but also have some of every other fraternity—Aequitarians, Resolutionists, Isolationists, Lucrosians, and a few Loyalists along for the ride. They're all mages who fought with the rebellion and then joined the Inquisition.
  • Grand Enchanter Fiona is present! If you want your character to have a significant conversation with her, either to get info or try to convince her of anything, do an info request—since she's so important and influential on her own, deciding what she would say or do is a mod call.
  • You can invent friends/future contacts from either camp for your character to keep in touch with on their own. I don't have any info beyond the scope of this plot to hand out right now, either as a player or as a mod, but for the belated Part III in a few months I will try to gather folks whose characters have Done Work in the interim to distribute influence/information accordingly.
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[personal profile] foolsmakeitcolder 2022-07-29 07:19 pm (UTC)(link)
Mobius is slowly but surely learning to speak wolf. The careful openness of Jude's expression gentles significantly with the bump, and he leans back into his shoulder. Not to push him over, but to hold him up. It's steady, a physical support without shaking him from his place.

Yes, lean in. He is here.

"I appreciate that." The honesty. The willingness to be open. Mobius doesn't want to lean on him, on anybody, and it's so very human of him to carry his own.

Jude does something he does often with his pack, something Mobius does often when Jude is in his fur, and lays a warm hand between his shoulder blades. It's a brief, warm touch.

Steady.

"Right now, there's bigger things on our plate. Let's worry about those."

He's not off the hook, but Jude knows where his heart is, even if the path it took to get there is foggier than he assumed.
Edited 2022-07-29 19:19 (UTC)
favoriteanalyst: (you dwell on all you ever did wrong)

[personal profile] favoriteanalyst 2022-07-29 08:01 pm (UTC)(link)
Mobius is good at picking up the unspoken. He cites the Maker as having given him a gift, specifically, though he can't exactly prove it. Speaking wolf is going to be like any other language. Slow but eager. Willing to make mistakes to get the point across. He feels Jude's weight, the steadying hand between his shoulders.

So. They'll stay friends for the moment. And Jude isn't going to make a production of it here and now.

"You underestimate my ability to worry about multiple things at once." He rests his forehead against Jude for a brief moment before straightening again. "But I appreciate that."
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[personal profile] foolsmakeitcolder 2022-07-31 03:56 am (UTC)(link)
"Oh, no. I'll never underestimate your ability to worry about things."

He's starting to realize that the number of times Mobius has had his nose broken just might coincide with how much business it's in, but that's going to be a joke for a day far less emotionally fraught.

As Mobius leans in, Jude pats his upper arm, letting his hand linger and grip there for a moment, steading. All casual intimacy, all the bedrock steadiness of a friend at heart, even if the details are clouded.
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Later:

[personal profile] foolsmakeitcolder 2022-08-12 01:57 am (UTC)(link)
On the road, there is time to talk. A few of the others are giving Mobius an obvious amount of room, and the tension is thick enough to cut with a knife. After a good hard run, Jude shifts back, beckons Mobius away from the zone where he'll startle the horses.

"What was it?" Jude asks. "Your Templar order? What did it ask of you? What was your role?"

It's hard, not growing up surrounded by it, to know exactly what it is, and why someone might choose it. But he does understand groups called to purpose. He knows how strong and good and loving they can be, and how very dangerous.
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[personal profile] favoriteanalyst 2022-08-12 08:06 am (UTC)(link)
If he's honest, he expected this more when they got back. But now's as good a time as any, with his ride. Mobius has rested well enough outside the suffocating grip of nightmares, but there's still an exhaustion that clings to him.

With Jude, as before, it's a struggle to know exactly what to do, where to stand with him. Knowing that the physical closeness is, for all intents and purposes, required. Knowing that socially, his own body demands distance for a heavy conversation that may end in anger and dismissal. Split the difference, then. Touch Jude, a hand firm on his shoulder, as he passes by before situating himself leaned on a tree, hands loosely folded in front of him. If Jude needs, he won't stop the wolfman from doing so.

Those are not the questions he anticipated, but given Jude's relative newness to this world, they make sense. His brow furrows. He's never had to define Templars before. They're something one learns about just by existing. Presumably as one grows up. He remembers nothing of his earliest years, but he did still retain knowledge--language, reading, what a young boy knew of the world and the Chant.

"Why are you here?" he asks in return. Not an accusation, not even answering a question with a question: it tumbles out of him out of curiosity. That Jude would be here, entangling himself in the affairs of mages, without knowing of or understanding a fairly important portion of what it means to be a mage, at least insofar as the shot-down proposal goes. Even if he came out of the concern for Rifters, it would mean that Jude really only got some of the story.

But an answer isn't required for him to answer in kind, and he takes in a steadying breath.

"The Templars are a holy Order, a military arm of the Chantry, whose main purpose is to safeguard the population at large from errant and dangerous magic, and to protect mages in their Circles in turn from the population at large as well as from themselves." 'Jailer' is one of the milder words used against them.

Blessed are the peacekeepers, and so on.

"I spent most of my life in a Circle as a vigilant guard against those who might dabble in blood magic, consort with demons, or who couldn't or wouldn't control their abilities." The role of most Templars, really, when it comes down to it.

What did it ask of you is a question that feels both too broad and too heavy to properly answer just yet. It asked him to kill, is probably the intent of the question. But it also asked him to sacrifice any kind of normal life, asked him to take in lyrium in spite of its dangers, asked for firm discipline, asked for obedience, asked for--friendship and family and purpose and meaning.

So he lets the answer settle there where it is.
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[personal profile] foolsmakeitcolder 2022-08-12 09:34 pm (UTC)(link)
The question confuses Jude. Not the fact that Mobius asked it, but the fact that Mobius thinks it's a question. Why is he here? Why did he come to Cumberland? Why is he here, now, asking?

Every now and again it strikes him like lightning, the difference between pack and non-shifters. Why do you care?

They never expect him to, and above all it's heartbreaking. A shifter could take one look at him and know what he is in their very bones. Only for the most broken, most hurt, most ghostly of the souls he's touched has he not made sense.

Sentinel.

"Because when I joined Riftwatch, you all became my pack. You became mine to care for."

It pains him obviously to say it, the catch in the very back of Jude's throat. The idea that Mobius might doubt it. Not for Jude's ego, not really; just the idea that Mobius thinks he's alone.

Mobius holds himself bravely, but like a man caught in a steel trap. And iron maiden. Every twitch cuts, and so he tries to be still.

"Mobius," he says quietly, stepping closer.

"I am not asking because I am trying to decide whether to condemn you. I am asking because I want to understand. From the second you made the decision to protect me at the Rift I came through, you have done nothing but show me who you are. I want to know why."
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[personal profile] favoriteanalyst 2022-08-12 10:27 pm (UTC)(link)
Jude hurts, audibly so, and Mobius blinks, presses himself a little further against the bark like the tree might open up and embrace him if only to get him away from the fact that he caused that. Even inadvertently. Jude is a very sensitive soul. Uniquely so, in a world like this. Mobius finds that he doesn't always know where to step.

And then he steps closer. Mobius has to look up at him but does that much with ease. Sometimes he feels small--not from being occasionally surrounded by giants, but for a feeling inside of him. The world is so big, so full of people that would hate him or turn on him in a moment if they only knew. Jude does not make him feel small.

Sometimes he just needs reminded of that.

"That's all I ever try to do. But it's not enough. Not for some. I don't want to judge people for what they were. I don't want to be judged by what I was. I want judged for who I am. I'm here. I'm here, and I'm doing my best to try and fix a broken world with a bunch of broken people who don't know what they're doing half the time. And that's not enough."

But that's also not what Jude asked. It's not what he asked, but it feels important to say that, in the wake.

He takes a breath, shuts his eyes, lets his head rest against wood.

"Do you want a history of the Order? Do you want to know the kinds of things that are expected of the knights, the things that make mages real jumpy?" He didn't promise Jude any answers; he'd made that very clear. "Ask me again what you want to know. What I can help you understand."
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[personal profile] foolsmakeitcolder 2022-08-15 07:42 pm (UTC)(link)
It all catches in his voice. The details are less important than the feeling. Not guilt, but frustration, tinged with fear and that all-pressing need to do something right. To understand what's around him and to cultivate it, breathe life into it. To not feel like enough.

It's something that Jude knows intimately. His mouth opens as he scents the forest around them, the soft birdcalls that fall flat on his human ears. The sharp relief and riot of color all around them.

His wolf doesn't understand what the problem is. He knows that Mobius hurts, because he can't fulfill his chosen role, and that's what matters. His human cares for the same thing, but understands that it won't be so uncomplicated.

"There are things I can read in books," Jude allows, easing closer to lean his back up against the tree next to him, close enough to feel warm. "But they won't tell me what those things meant to you. How they shaped your life, and who you've chosen to be."
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[personal profile] favoriteanalyst 2022-08-15 09:03 pm (UTC)(link)
Mobius laughs, unkindly. "How it shaped my life," a murmur. It only shaped the entirety of who he is. Is that the point? Is that what Jude wants to know, the nitty gritty of who he is, which is shaped by his time as a Templar? Is that all he's ever going to be?

He looks at Jude. What is it that he wants, this man who is just at home on four legs as two? Looks away. He lets their arms touch.

"You don't technically become a Templar until you've done a whole lot of rigorous training and passed the tests. But if we count being one as when you first go in to start that training, then I've been one since I was thirteen." And while Mobius does not supply his age, he's clearly not a spring chicken. "I left it. Long enough ago that it feels like it shouldn't matter. Not long enough for most it matters to. History's funny like that."

He lets out a breath. "I had a calling." Is that something Jude can understand? "Now I have a different one."
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[personal profile] foolsmakeitcolder 2022-08-16 08:28 pm (UTC)(link)
Even if Mobius doesn't think he's sharing much, he is. It's in what he doesn't say, in how he holds himself, in what he chooses to share layered over what he chooses to hold back.

There is trauma here, looped up in all of this, even if Mobius isn't willing to discuss it. Jude knows now isn't the time to press on those tender hurts, to drag all his insides out and make him look at them. He's not in that place yet. Right now, he is struggling to do the right thing and deeply insecure in his place in Riftwatch. Even in the relationships he's cultivated are in question.

Jude leans into his arm, not in a way that has Mobius taking the weight of him, but giving him a place to rest.

"Is it so different a calling?" Jude asks, then pauses, thinking it through. There are a lot of assumptions here, but they each feel right. Each one leads to what follows.

"You joined in service to others. To protect them. To keep faith."

Riftwatch. The Templar order. Both.

It seems obvious enough to him.
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[personal profile] favoriteanalyst 2022-08-16 09:24 pm (UTC)(link)
"It comes from the same place," he confirms. Where, exactly, he's not sure he wants to say. To Astarion, it had been a matter of compulsion. Here, he has control.

He will take as much control of his narrative as he's afforded.

"There are stories of Circles rife with abuse. The Gallows was one. Kirkwall as a whole doesn't have a happy history, but it was one of the places that led to the mage rebellion in the first place. Some Circles were destroyed by holy decree." If Jude was around for Derrica's whole speech, he'll have picked up on that much. "No one's going to argue that it was ever a perfect system."

But he's not here to argue about the system, is he? Jude is asking after him.

"I could offer apologies for what I was. They won't mean anything. Partly because they would never be accepted, partly because for the most of my service, I'm not sorry. I did some things I'm ashamed of. The Maker will judge me when my time comes. But I have tried to spend the past forty years of my life to do my best. That's all anyone can ever do. I refuse to let the anger of others define me and my place here. I will stay here, in service to others, to protect them, to keep faith, to end this war. And if others are mad about it, tough shit for them."

He feels like he's standing a little straighter for it, a reconfirmation of his stance.

But he glances askance again at Jude. Lets the backs of his fingers brush the backs of Jude's. "Sorry for being a little intense."
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[personal profile] foolsmakeitcolder 2022-08-17 03:35 am (UTC)(link)
It fills in blanks, speaks to a system that Jude knows well, even if he doesn't know of the particulars of this one. Faith, pure intentions twisted to serve power, thirst for control, conquest. The idea of something being different and therefore monstrous. Assumed control of something that one cannot fully comprehend, because it is not their nature.

He's stood with plenty of people through the horror of living in a nightmare, and the greater horror of what they are after they wake.

Without hesitation, he takes Mobius's hand, clasps it in his own. Puts his other hand over the back of it, a firm warm press.

"Your intensity isn't a problem for me."

Letting his eyes search over his face, Jude steadies them both.

"How do you feel about others knowing, now?"
Edited 2022-08-17 03:36 (UTC)
favoriteanalyst: (echoing where my ghosts all used to be)

[personal profile] favoriteanalyst 2022-08-17 08:28 am (UTC)(link)
"I don't want them to." A part of himself he normally keeps safe and secure. "Just because I'm going to stand where I will doesn't mean the judgement won't hurt. I was stupid and I slipped, and now that's going to follow me for the rest of my time here."

He deflates, just a little. "Supposed to reconvene in a few months. There's no way I'll be allowed to go. So...good luck when you do."
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[personal profile] foolsmakeitcolder 2022-08-19 05:38 pm (UTC)(link)
Jude sit with that answer. It makes sense, completely, but the second part catches at him, teasing with questions. He pats the back of his hand.

"Do you know why it is so important to you to go?"
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[personal profile] favoriteanalyst 2022-08-19 06:06 pm (UTC)(link)
"I care." It feels like an echo of Jude earlier. But that's not enough. He realizes that that is not enough.

"I...wanted to be part of this, to have some influence." Does that sound selfish? "Given my particular perspective, and understanding that most of our mages are much more along the lines of rebels than with any of the fraternities proper. I wanted to try and quietly mediate something more toward the middle, because otherwise the two sides are so damn opposite that they'll never agree to anything. I think I got some of the Loyalists to start at least reconsidering some of the items in the proposal." None of it sounds good, even if it's the truth, he supposes.

"I wanted to help, because I thought of some of ours getting up in arms and Rifters getting caught up in it."
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[personal profile] foolsmakeitcolder 2022-08-20 05:50 am (UTC)(link)
It sounds selfish, but mostly just on the surface. Mobius at his heart wants to do something, wants to do the right thing, and his ego and pride are so closely aligned with Jude's own.

He feels better about himself when he can be of service. Best when he knows he's doing the right thing.

"You can still do that," Jude says simply. He doesn't believe for a second that Mobius will be outright barred from it. People may disapprove. They will disapprove. He probably won't be heard by some, no matter how reasonably he tries to speak. How heartfelt. But that doesn't have to stop him.

And it likely won't.

"Just as you planned. As a member of Riftwatch, and as somebody who gives a damn."
favoriteanalyst: (I am supposed to do now)

[personal profile] favoriteanalyst 2022-08-21 11:46 am (UTC)(link)
Jude says the words, and he doesn't actually believe it. But it sounds nice. He lifts their hands, leans his cheek against the back of Jude's.

"I think we should bring Circles back." Before Jude gets the wrong idea about him, maybe. "It doesn't have to be in the way that they were. They can be different, have a different name. Really be the place of safety and learning they were meant to be. And then maybe someday, down the line, probably sometime long after most of us are at the Maker's side, maybe people won't be as afraid, and we can transition to a society where we don't need them. But we need them, at least for a bit. How many of our friends that are mages do you think are ever going to agree to that without restarting a war?"
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[personal profile] foolsmakeitcolder 2022-08-21 04:14 pm (UTC)(link)
Jude watches the way he does it, and it occurs to him that maybe, Mobius isn't just accommodating Jude's own hunger for touch.

It's something to sit with. He squeezes.

"Mandatory circles will never fly," he says, a bit of his previous-world slang slipping into his speech patterns, which are usually much more thoughtful around Mobius. "If it's a safe haven, run by mages, or run by Rifters, and people can freely leave, then maybe. There's not a single Rifter that would willingly commit themselves to a door locking behind them."

A pause, and then:

"That includes me."

It's quiet, and honest, and he doesn't pull away. He doesn't want to.

"For a long time, your circle was a place of comfort and brotherhood for you," Jude adds. "And the same seems so for Derrica, before the Annulment."

It's harsh words, harsh things to bring up, but Jude's not one to shy away from terrible things.

"For other mages, like Matthias-" the boy he's never spoken to, but he remembers the pain laced all through him in that meeting, in the fire and teeth in every word he spoke. His story is written so clearly in every tight gesture.

"They are holes to be buried in. A promise of more abuse, and no recourse. When you say "circle", no matter how kindly you mean it, it's going to feel like a noose tickling over their ears."
favoriteanalyst: (cause they're not worth fighting)

[personal profile] favoriteanalyst 2022-08-21 10:19 pm (UTC)(link)
"Some of the items on the proposal were leaning that way. Voluntarily go to one, and you can leave when you want. Look, fact of the matter is, what Enchanter Derrica had in Rivain, it won't work here without a lot of reform and a generation or two to shift society's ideas on mages. Those stories told, child drownings, stuff like that? It's not fake. It's not scaremongering; people do that. There have to be places to send children coming into their magical powers where they can be taught safely, and in the south, it's not going to be a community effort. Period. End of story. There needs to be a transition period, and I'm afraid our people won't accept that and will try and change things with violence."

He was honest in what he'd told Derrica. He'd like to see a world where mages are freely integrated with society, accepted members, loved and helpful and free. That's the ideal. But most of the Marches won't go for it. Ferelden definitely won't. Orlais might be split on it but ultimately won't. Antiva won't. Nevarra could be persuaded to some extent. He thinks of the man Marcus and how his steady but fiery words indicated that if it wasn't full freedom, then it would be war.

"For the record, I don't think Rifters belong in any circles. Your magic is different, and a lot of you don't even have what could rightfully be called magic, save for having a bit of the Fade in you. The Chantry won't see it that way, I know. But it's wrong to put people who aren't our mages in, like you can be taught how to not set yourself on fire when that's not a thing you're generally capable of anyway. You're too special for that."
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[personal profile] foolsmakeitcolder 2022-08-22 06:32 pm (UTC)(link)
Jude quiets to listen; most of what Mobius is telling him is what he already knows, a reaffirmation of just how complicated the problem is. They will have to meet somewhere in the middle. Mages will need a safe haven, a place to retreat and learn to practice their art safely, while still being held to the standards of every single person in society. They must be protected, and so must the people living around them. That can never happen with full separation, but so many people now still have too-fresh wounds, and there can only be worse things to come if they aren't allowed to heal.

It's a complicated issue, and not for the first time, he wishes he could speak with the elders of his pack about it. They know these problems intimately; they were at the forefront of fighting a battle much like this. Jude was a child who grew up in the weak but warm sunshine of the haven they built.

"You're right," Jude says, of the circles, and the Rifters. "But what happens to mages will matter to us. How fairly they are treated will be our precedent. Especially for those of us with abilities that humans-" he pauses, corrects himself. "That people who aren't us have not grown up with."

Jude pauses, looking down at their joined hands, and cups Mobius's palm between his own. It calms him; in another world it would be where a pulse of what makes him more would radiate out between them. Would bring them both to zero, let them look at this with clear heads.

"Shifters- my people- went through something similar," he says. "Our ability to change isn't the only thing that makes us different."
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[personal profile] favoriteanalyst 2022-08-23 10:38 am (UTC)(link)
It's something he imagines he'll be saying plenty in the coming months, and he's preparing himself for few to listen. It is complicated, and there aren't any good answers.

Welcome to life, really.

Mobius looks at their hands, then looks to Jude's face. It's easy to be open with him. This man who is a shifter, as a race, more than he is human, apparently. This man who seems like he's missing something, something in him rather than missing home or his people. Is there a hole inside him that the Fade couldn't fill? Like he needs all the touch in the world. Maybe it would be enough then.

He angles himself to face his companion. Lightly press his body there. "I'll listen if you want to talk about your people." He'll also drop it if Jude would prefer to keep the subject more on Mobius. "I've been doing a lot of listening the past few days." As much as quiet conversation, he has been listening.
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[personal profile] foolsmakeitcolder 2022-08-25 01:45 am (UTC)(link)
Jude didn't precisely mean to change the subject, but he can sense that Mobius is a touched bruised with all of this, and he might appreciate Jude letting up on pressing into his hurts.

This past stretch of time hasn't been easy for any of them, and Jude doesn't know if talking about his people will be similar.

People, rather than pack, then.

Shifters.

And Jude, himself.

"Keep hearing the mention of "werewolves" coming up," Jude says, gentling his tone on purpose to make up for the sorrow that he knows will filter through. "And we stay away from that term at home. At home, we call them ghosts. Shifters who have lost their bonds, lost control, gone to beast. A ghost wolf, specifically, is when one of us is hurt enough to barely cling to sanity. They're unpredictable, dangerous when cornered. The maneaters of legend."

Jude strokes his thumb along the back of Mobius's hand.

"A few hundred years ago, we weren't many, but we were strong. We took care of our own, lived well and shared the land with the few humans we came across. Nomadic tribes, hunter-gatherers, small settlements. We traded with them, assisted where we could. Became part of their legends. Then, colonizers came. They settled tribal lands and shifter lands alike- and they didn't know what we were.

"I imagine they thought that we were wild wolves, come to raid their settlements. It was so long ago the howlers have conflicting stories. But they began killing us."

Jude's fingers don't pause, but there is a comforting repetition in the way he moves his hands, a recitation that speaks of something he learned at an elder's knee.

"A wolf pack is bonded in ways that humans aren't. We feel each other. Need each other. We are a grove of aspen trees, a hive of bees, all interconnected. If one of us suffers violence, suffers grief and fear, suffers torture, every single bonded wolf will feel it. And it compounds. And it is strongest in our strongest. An alpha drive insane by grief,"

He pauses here, on the implicit horror.

"Can take hundreds with her."
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[personal profile] favoriteanalyst 2022-08-25 05:36 pm (UTC)(link)
"That sounds..."

He trails off, looking at their hands, trying to figure out what to say about just how that sounds. All of this, existing here, hasn't been easy on Jude. To be without his people. Especially as he's a very touchy guy, wants, needs to have that physical connection. But now to know that it wasn't just physical? It's so strange, bizarre. That one could be done a violence and go mad from it, and thus lead a whole pack to madness? That's so fragile. Dangerous. Did they stay as wolves more often? Were the ghosts really so bad or just misguided? He's not sure that he fully understands.

"That sounds awful." Is the truth of it. His face pinches. "To be interconnected with so many people and feel what they feel, and feel it amplified? To be unable to really exist without? You must be used to it, but that sounds horrifying."

Would it be easier if he could tap into the emotions of people around him, sure. But would he want that all the time? Maker, no.

"How is it that you're holding up, being disconnected from your pack?"
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[personal profile] foolsmakeitcolder 2022-08-25 07:50 pm (UTC)(link)
Jude can't help it; he smiles. It's a sadder one, because he knows it won't be something he'll be able to explain to someone who's never lived it.

"What humans have sounds awful," he murmurs instead, tilting his head to look at Mobius levelly. "Alone, always. From the moment you're born until the moment you die. No choice but to take everyone at their word. Never knowing if your loved ones are safe."

Jude's dark eyes search his, and he squeezes his hand.

"It's like being blinded, or deafened, or all of your sense of touch, gone. It's a part of me cut out of me. An amputation. Worse, I can catch glimpses, just touches of-"

He trails off, presses Mobius's hand harder, as if that will amplify it.

"For us it's not constant and deafening. The stronger the bond, the stronger the sense. Mates. Parents, and pups. We might never know that something happened, write it off as a sudden chill. For others, they feel every cut, every flicker of sadness or rage. Ghost wolves can be brought back, but it takes work and trust. Healing from trauma is never easy, but it can be done."

For him, though-

"I am different. What we call a Sentinel."
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[personal profile] favoriteanalyst 2022-08-25 09:33 pm (UTC)(link)
Mobius huffs out a low sound, a little bit of a sigh, a little laugh, a little wistful. Plenty confused, but. "That doesn't sound as bad, when you put it that way. Maker knows there are times I'd like just a little glimpse, to know better than my eyes can see sometimes." He's not sure if he wants to say about being gifted from on high, here, now. Later, maybe.

He never shies from Jude's touches or looks. In a way, he feels like a stabilizing force or a pillar. Not in any true sense that he could ever name. He's just calm. Relaxed. Understanding. Pillar-like.

Maybe that has to do with whatever it is that he is. "Sentinel sounds protective." Like a knight. Or, like a Knight. Jude can certainly fight as ferociously as one, even if not in the traditional ways.

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